Realy believe me ,

this is my grandmother from my mother's side in Indonesia Bali , I made the awfull remark about my mother's wage's but every hood shall be treated the same , for my mom and grandmother "Gelijke moniken , gelijke kappen." , as I wrote her I had to do say it , because it wouldt work against me if I said nothing about how a good life is made , by ofcourse spending it good , to bring your elder along , and this after the painfull departure of my grandfather , not that I look down at my mother , but a mamma's boy I'm not anymore since they rock and roll in went in with party's with housemusic , and did feel guilty about it , but also lifed it like if people will never leave life with the presence of them in life , and a lot made that we miss each other , the letters about that what I write are not for acussing only my mother , but more about the difficult subjects that come to my ear as a child in the difficult way to keep my brother Erik calm way they called me to calm and my mother thought time enough to do were Erik is a bit to soon for his age , my father broke that spell by buying clothing fitting to my age , and my mother started to see that also , I had to live a bit more , and my guiltysecret to my grandfather and grandmother was smoking weed , that what I fully ended , but that was mile's away , like it sometimes in a respectfull way does feel , and sheds light on my thoughts about beïng commoner what I am , and the reality that is not the bottemline , but my protest on high but not much spread of the wage's must be the same sentiment as them , who realy want also this goodness in life for everyone like me , so the mention as overrated is a ''Wouldt you say no , when you couldt get a wage like that ?" , no , but also the shame is so unfair , by other events , like the cuts by Mark Rutte , that oké rich comminers or mid-class , but deserved like more deserve it , so do the same , don't pin me down on that .