Bullshit economy ,

and that is my bite-ring , again a object of disarguement with Erik that has been , it is mine and disgarded as it looks by the amount of returnings and how I hidded it away , but that is why it is good to say that I will like to visit my family , but mostly conversations have been in a connecting way of regrets and holding on decesion that was made then , not ever seeing eachother again what is unfair to the rest of the family , but you start with your elders , and with my mother it was perfect and true I did find it all more demanding then they with burn-out behavior more of explaining that it was Erik that did do , so most of the time it is a tiring moment not for excusing ourselve's , that we do , we understand each other , but then I attack Erik , or he attacks me , that tension is allway's there , so we do not avoid each other , but that we avoid , with Erik now that more visits , but it seems he can not start anything on my expense on how 'good' he is , because the 'fun' he make's then of my rage is not what they call fun anymore , with most of the red wire running trough I now write down and publicate at weblog , or hacked off then at Picasa .